Not for the faint of heart

Dear Beth,
 I have entered into the "Advanced" Stage of Biogenic training and I assure you that it is not for the faint of heart. 

I understand on an intellectual basis what Dr. Shealy is aiming for but I find myself resisting the sessions because of all the conversation in my head.   Staring at the color red.  Seeing form of a door knob and not color and then the color and not form....Talk about New Age weirdness.

But here's the thing...I am New Age Weird!  By that I mean  New Age Thought could also equal Ancient Wisdom and I long for the wisdom not just modern knowledge. I guess that makes me weird.

I think that Dr. Shealy is trying to get me to utilize more of my brain than the logical frontal cortex.  There IS a lot more brain to access but I usually don't.  I'm used to being logical and intellectual.
Yet, logic and intellect are very limiting. For one thing,  being this way forces me to ignore things that don't "make sense."  You and I both know that a lot of things in this life just don't make sense...a lot of important things.  Like faith. How can I fully understand what it is to live by faith and trusting in a power greater than myself?  Answer- I can't. 

So I will try again to look at the door knob and see only the color and then at the color and see only the form.  If for no other reason, it will give me practice and my logical brain can take a little rest.