Not for the faint of heart

Dear Beth,
 I have entered into the "Advanced" Stage of Biogenic training and I assure you that it is not for the faint of heart. 

I understand on an intellectual basis what Dr. Shealy is aiming for but I find myself resisting the sessions because of all the conversation in my head.   Staring at the color red.  Seeing form of a door knob and not color and then the color and not form....Talk about New Age weirdness.

But here's the thing...I am New Age Weird!  By that I mean  New Age Thought could also equal Ancient Wisdom and I long for the wisdom not just modern knowledge. I guess that makes me weird.

I think that Dr. Shealy is trying to get me to utilize more of my brain than the logical frontal cortex.  There IS a lot more brain to access but I usually don't.  I'm used to being logical and intellectual.
Yet, logic and intellect are very limiting. For one thing,  being this way forces me to ignore things that don't "make sense."  You and I both know that a lot of things in this life just don't make sense...a lot of important things.  Like faith. How can I fully understand what it is to live by faith and trusting in a power greater than myself?  Answer- I can't. 

So I will try again to look at the door knob and see only the color and then at the color and see only the form.  If for no other reason, it will give me practice and my logical brain can take a little rest.

Shealy SELF-HEALTH Day #48

Advanced Biogenics

The following sessions represent a shift from the previous 47 days.  They presume that I have learned how to relax; that I have instituted a daily exercise routine of at least 30 minutes.  Also, expected is that I have limited my daily intake of sugar, wheat, milk and caffeine.  Most importantly, the previous 47 sessions have taught me how to relax; to recognize when I need to relax and to provide myself timely reminders during the day for quieting my mind by instituting  a session.   After all of these foundations are in place the program continues with the more advanced sessions.

Relax. Take a deep, pleasant breath, then say an do the following with eyes open:

I look around a bit and turn my head slightly to see my surroundings. I look and see but I don't judge. I don't comment on it;  I just look. I look around. I see what is here. 

Now as I look, I observe only color. I ignore form I concentrate on an indiidual color that I like. (Focus for five minutes).

Now I concentrate on depth. I ignore color. I focus on depth, width, height. (Focus for five minutes).

This exercise may be done three times per day OR once per day and the other two sessions based on earlier lessons.

A new week...a new start. Again!

Hi Beth,
 I haven't written in the blog for about a week..but worse, I haven't done my sessions. I found that I had no interest in imagining myself on a scale. Maybe I should but I don't. What I also noticed is that I MUST have a scheduled time to do these sessions during the day or else the day gets full and I get exhausted.  The most important thing is to actually stop for several minutes and remind my mind to be quiet.  For me this must occur at least 3 times during the work day.  
  Speaking of work, I had my first full week, last week. It went quite well but was tiring. This week we are moving so the challenge will be to keep to my scheduled sessions even when crazy busy. So, it's a new week. I will start again.

Shealy SELF-HEALTH Days #40- 47

HABIT REGULATION

During Days 40-47, concentrate on the appropriate exercise from among the following:

• Weight Balance
• Freedom from Smoking,
• Freedom from Alcohol
•  Sleep Harmony

I choose Weight Balance since my medical advisors have recommended that I lower my BMI to 27.

Assume your relaxed position and choose from the  following statements. If you have difficulty remembering all the phrases, pick out the one or two most meaningful to you. Repeat them 10-20 times or as otherwise stated. At the same time, create a vision of yourself standing on a scale which shows you at your ideal weight. Practice this technique three times daily preferably before every meal.

Now I see myself and feel myself as perfectly healthy and happy. And I project myself to my own private, perfect room, my own hideaway where I can happily go to know myself. I see myself enter and close the door. My room is furnished ideally for my desires. I undress and look at my body in my own full-length mirror.  (Pause one minute)  I see my body just as realistically as anything I've ever seen.

Now I visualize and feel my body at my ideal weight. (Pause two minutes) 

My appetite is pleasantly satisfied.  (Repeat 10 times) 

I visualize and feel my body at my ideal weight.   (Repeat 10-20 times) 

I become increasingly comfortable as I attain my desired weight.  (Repeat 3 times) 

I become healthier and healthier as I attain my desired weight.  (Repeat 3 times) 

I feel increasing pride and joy as I attain my desired weight. (Repeat 3 times) 

I am attuned with my Highest Self, lovingly and happily.    (Repeat 10-20 times) 

My appetite is pleasantly satisfied.  I am satisfied with just enough calories to maintain my ideal weight.  (Repeat 10 times) 

I visualize and feel my body at my ideal weight.  I will carry this image and feeling with me as I return to normal awareness.

Now, as I prepare to return to my normal awareness, I feel myself bringing with me the health, happiness, and love I feel and see.  I take a deep breath, open my eyes and stretch comfortably, feeling satisfied and filled with loving energy.

Back at work...finally

Dear Beth,
 I had my first teaching day yesterday. The substitute teachers are gone now. I'm on my own. It went pretty well but by 1:00 I was spent. Fortunately, William was right outside waiting for me so that I could sleep in the car on the way back to the apartment. 

My class started at 11:20 and at 10:20 I started feeling really really tired. So I found an empty classroom and had a quiet time. I'm still trying to stick to my 3 times per day at the same time but it will be challenging until the dust settles and I get in a rhythm.  For now, I focus on the sessions at my desk or in a quiet spot any time I feel I need help.   They really help me to relax. Part of the problem with feeling tired is being afraid that I won't be able to do my job and then getting all anxious about it. Being able to calm myself immediately is a good thing.

Hope you have moved out the in-laws into your new house.

Cheryl

Shealy SELF-HEALTH Days #35-39 -My Versions

From Sai Baba's teachings- The five prayers for the Sheaths.
Assume your position. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly.

With each in breath and out breath say:
 I am God. I am no different from God

Repeat this saying 40 times during the session
Have three sessions per day.

Terminate each session by taking a deep breath, opening your eyes and stretching comfortably to feel all parts of your body awakening.

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From Sai Baba's teachings- The five prayers for the Sheaths.
Assume your position. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly.

With each in breath and out breath say:
 I am Indivisible, Supreme Absolute

Repeat this saying 40 times during the session
Have three sessions per day.

Terminate each session by taking a deep breath, opening your eyes and stretching comfortably to feel all parts of your body awakening.

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From Sai Baba's teachings- The five prayers for the Sheaths.
Assume your position. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly.

With each in breath and out breath say:
 I am Being, Awareness and Bliss

Repeat this saying 40 times during the session
Have three sessions per day.

Terminate each session by taking a deep breath, opening your eyes and stretching comfortably to feel all parts of your body awakening.

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From Sai Baba's teachings- The five prayers for the Sheaths.
Assume your position. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly.

With each in breath and out breath say:
 I am surrendered. Grief and Anxiety can not affect me.

Repeat this saying 40 times during the session
Have three sessions per day.

Terminate each session by taking a deep breath, opening your eyes and stretching comfortably to feel all parts of your body awakening.

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From Sai Baba's teachings- The five prayers for the Sheaths.
Assume your position. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath and let it out slowly.

With each in breath and out breath say:
 I am ever content. Fear can never enter me.

Repeat this saying 40 times during the session
Have three sessions per day.

Terminate each session by taking a deep breath, opening your eyes and stretching comfortably to feel all parts of your body awakening.

Shealy SELF-HEALTH Days #35-#39

Sessions 35-39 allow for choosing the favorites from the last 34 days. The goal is to determine which of the sessions are most effective. In other words, which of these daily practices lead to the deepest relaxation in the shortest amount of time.

The new Normal

Dear Beth,
 I have been back to work for 10 days. It has been a tough 10 days. Everything seems the same, my office, my classes, the building, my colleagues.  I'm not the same.  The first day back, I had to leave early. I was so tired after just 2 hours and all I was doing was sitting. 

 I don't know how I will stand up in front of a class room.  Well, first of all, I won't be standing. That is one thing I can control. I have permission from the doctor to work only 4 hours but only the chair of the department knows that. 

To everyone else, I look normal. I don't feel normal. 

This is the new normal.

Shealy SELF-HEALTH Day #34

Choose three of your favorite techniques out of the last 33 days. Combine them into one session by doing them for a shorter period of time. The total time should be about 15 minutes three times per day.

For me-
 Day #3- I am relaxed
 Day #4- I am one
Day #3- I am love